Nigel Owens reveals how personal crisis and coming out reshaped rugby's bravest referee into a figure of resilience and honesty.

Nigel Owens is one of the best referees in world rugby. But before reaching the highest echelons of the game, he went through a personal crisis and "came out" as gay - the first to do so in the macho world of professional rugby. His bravery earned him great respect from players, officials and supporters alike. In this warm, funny and painfully honest autobiography, he speaks frankly about his struggle to accept himself for who he was, leading to attempted suicide, bulimia and steroid addiction. Owens also recounts many amusing incidents from rugby matches, foreign trips and his off-field career as an entertainer.